Only Time Will Tell

Originally posted October 15, 2016

Beginnings and endings (though there are no true endings) are a natural part of life. Friendships, partnerships, and relationships of any kind come and go to support us when we need it and to help us evolve (even if we might not want to). These relationships might last for a minute, a few months, a few years, or a lifetime. Sometimes, we hold on longer than we should to a relationship, and other times, relationships might come back around after the individuals have done whatever work they need to do or to serve another purpose altogether.

Our humanness plays a huge part, for sure, in how we show up, interact, and treat those with whom we’re in a relationship. Sometimes, we over-identify with a relationship to the point that we ‘forget’ who we are as individuals. When this happens, it stirs up something inside of us that tells us something is “off” and we need to heal it. We will feel discomfort until we come to terms with it, and it requires a strong sense of awareness, self, intuition, and openness to be guided to realize this is happening.

I know I’ve overidentified with a relationship and it caused me to forget who I was momentarily, and I’ve definitely held on to toxic relationships for far longer than I should have (romantic and platonic). I don’t have any regrets, though, and have learned so much from those I’ve come in contact with.

I’ve also come to appreciate that the relationships that were tarnished with abuse, neglect, and disrespect pushed me into a place of being less vulnerable over time. I realize it’s been these types of life experiences that have created a protective wall (as detrimental as it can be), which happens for many of us, I believe. It’s the path of courage and tenacity that’s required to break down that wall and allow ourselves to fully be seen once again, because that’s the only way to fully experience life and love in the way that moves mountains.

From all of this pondering, the following words about relationship made their way to the page.

Here’s to courage and tenacity to move mountains.

Much Love,

Ronda

Only Time Will Tell 

a beginning is an ending that leads us to the next
an ending is a beginning that takes us north, south, east or west

I know you have questions, as do I
sometimes it’s difficult to wait for a sign

do we take a step forward, or maybe even two
or will that result in too many wounds?

the past should not be an indicator, though maybe a guide
but to allow it to rule means opportunities could hide

all we can do is move in this moment
to drown out the voices that warn without warrant

of good intentions, the warnings might come
but always remember where they come from

they come from a perspective outside of us
to be used only as information with cautiousness

then there are the gremlins we need to tend to
the ones that make us question what we know to be true

it’s our intuition we must  listen to instead
to open ourselves up like a book to be read

and from that quiet place, our answers will be found
though it might take us more than just a few silent rounds
to trust in our heart what we know to be so
and to simply trust, have faith, and let go

so hold my hand
and by you, I will stand

whatever decision is made
we’ll make it right, at least for today

for tomorrow will be a different page
and the book we are reading could continue to change

but regardless of how the pages unfold
we will know that our friendship can at least grow old
it’s the friendships in life that help us on our path
so without friendship first, what do we have?

I observe those around me with a wondrous eye
loving the people as they walk by

so many stories to be made up or know
and how many of them have known love over snow?

as the leaves turn in front of me with fall’s magic touch
I’m reminded that love is so much more than a honeymoon lunch

it’s a choice in the making to love and be loved
and the more I watch, it’s the slow and steady who seem to have won

acceptance and patience, awareness and truth
compassion and gratitude all need their room
for these are the offerings of unconditional love
it’s the love all around us if we choose to open up

Can I be vulnerable and open up to the risk?
Will I show up daily as our hearts will wish?

Can I stand before you with my Soul fully unclothed?
Will I be willing to be with you through the ebb and the flow?

Can you be vulnerable and open up to the risk?
Will you show up daily as our hearts will wish?

Can you stand before me with your Soul fully unclothed?
will you be willing to be with me through the ebb and the flow?

I don’t have the answers, nor do I know where tomorrow might lead
but for today, I know this… we have planted a seed

and I will show up. I will give.
I will collaborate with you to fully live.

perfection is not the goal, nor a land full of peace
worthless expectations are not required for our lease

a partnership in the making, for as long as it lasts
we will not know what could be until some time has passed

with family and friends in community with our plans
we all join together to forge our own paths

with all of that said, the higher powers could indicate we are to be apart
at which point, from our ship we can peacefully depart

Can I be vulnerable and open up to the risk?
Will I show up daily as our hearts will wish?

Can I stand before you with my Soul fully unclothed?
Will I be willing to be with you through the ebb and the flow?

Can you be vulnerable and open up to the risk?
Will you show up daily as our hearts will wish?

Can you stand before me with your Soul fully unclothed?
Will you be willing to be with me through the ebb and the flow?

I don’t have the answers, nor do I know where tomorrow might lead
but for today, I know this… we have planted a seed

and only time will tell where our lives will lead